A Tangy Tuesday

Today had a slow start. I was supposed to be up early and leave to Cyberjaya in the morning. I ended up making a good breakfast for myself and settling down to watch a movie on Astro Box Office. There was a good movie which just started, so there went my plan down the drain. Anyways class today was at 5pm only, so I thought I could postpone my plan a bit.

Halfway through the movie I slept off, woke up at 11am and found my dad at home. He had field work today so he came back early. I can't be sitting around and risk being scolded, so I had to make myself busy, house chores, drying the clothes etc. Slept off again. *zzzz..* Wonder why am i feeling so sleepy nowadays.

My cousin started forcing me to leave as soon as possible before it rains. It was a bit cloudy towards Puchong, as far as my eyes could see, and I didn't want to risk getting wet in the rain, but the torture from him started getting unbearable. So I thought what the heck and decided to give him a taste of raindrops poking on the skin at 90km/h. *that's the max speed on my humble bike*

Luckily for him, it didn't rain but the journey was pleasant all the way. No sun, no rain, and the weather was nice and cloudy. We enjoyed the ride thoroughly, stopping by the road for fun checking out fast cars. Lucky for me an R35 GTR was on the loose that time. Hearing those horses scream was a close enough experience, though I once failed to tail the car with my dad's Waja. The pick-up of that GTR was amazing, it kept pulling away from me even at 160km/h. I touched 190, then it was bye-bye baby. I didn't intend to outrun it, just wanted to hear the exhaust sound when the driver's at it. One word. Intense. =)

The rest of the day was spent attending my only class and going for a round visiting my friends. I watched this movie called 'Kanden Kaadhalai' starring Bharath and Tamanna. It's a remake of 'Jab We Met'. Quite a nice storyline, fairly smooth and subtle on the sentiments. I like that movie, the way Bharath acts and Tamanna at her best, the usual bubbly character.

A round of supper with shisha with my close buddies, and now I'm back to my place. A good movie after a nice bath shall accompany me to bed tonight. Sweet dreams world.. :)

The Quarter Life Crisis

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, may, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have become stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confuse. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or may be you love someone but at the same time love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and out worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole things out.

Reminiscence..

Come to think of it, 2009 has been the worst ever year of my life. By that I literally mean the WORST, for some reasons. Nothing major has been working out for me. I've never been this low at any point of my life. 12 years ago it was the best year of my life. Maybe it's a cycle. What a crappy idea to think of. I need to turn everything around. Why is it the people that never meant harm to anyone are the ones being brought to suffer and faced with circumstances that seem hopeless??

I can't just sit and wait for time to change all this things. What do I do next??

Where do I go from here..??


One thing's for sure, I will survive this..!!

*damn..*

Modern Rock and Me

This song kept playing in my head over and over again the whole day today. I used to sing this song before, when I was still small, not knowing what it meant. Now it paints a picture in my head. Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere, don't know which way to go..~

Thank God it's Friday

Good morning Malaysia. I woke up early today. Love the morning sunshine. Been a while since I had a feel of the morning rays on my skin now. I've always slept when the sun rises, and rise when the sun sets. Today I managed to switch my clock back on track. It's a beautiful Friday today, with the birds chirping outside my window. A good day for good things to happen.

The title reminds me of TGIF. It would be a good idea to take the boys over there later today. Been a long time since the cousins had a good outing, now that all 4 of us are here. Sunway Pyramid, here we come..!

Things have been taking a turn lately. Studies have been better, relationships with people around me have become better, and finance has become a little stable. Now I've gotta save up the extra bucks to start buying my sound system components. I've got a new project running now. Will post up progress and pics once it takes off. =)

Time to run back to campus, my lecturer has been giving me the slip since the beginning of the week. He's a busy man, been off campus with conferences and projects to attend. Hope to catch him in office today. Lucky I've got a nice lecturer as my academic advisor. Some of my friends aren't as lucky. Their advisors tend to drive them up the wall with constant nagging and not that supportive. Perhaps that's their way of motivating students to do better. :p

Aadhavan was good. I went for a show yesterday in Pyramid. There's not much story in it, but the movie was totally hilarious with Surya and Vadivelu. Something like what you saw in 'Vel' but this goes on for like 70% of the movie. Not much drama, and love. Family sentiments are aplenty. Surya looks real stylish in this movie. Nice wardrobe, fresh foreign locations, and nice CGI affects at certain points. Not much to comment about Nayanthara this time. K.S. Ravikumar made a good comeback after a not-so-booming Dasavatharam. I enjoyed the show, though many of my friends think it isn't as nice as Surya's previous movies. Watch and enjoy, don't relate too much or compare. We live in the real world, so be real. That would be my advice. =)

Have a nice day everyone. Adious..~!